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As Junior year is coming to an end, I feel myself having mixed feelings. On one hand, the end of Junior year means the end of a year of schoolwork and 6:30 am wake ups, allowing for three months of free time, assuming my parents haven't completely booked me for summer camps. On the other, that means in less than a week, I will be considered a Senior in high school. This is a pretty nerve wracking and depressing thought for me. I don't particularly like school, mind you, I mainly just like the people in the school. When I become a Senior, that means I only have one year left to be around all my friends and cram in as many memories as I can. Becoming a senior will also mean that the final stage of the college process will kick in, no doubt bringing tons of anxiety and stress along with it. I feel as though at some point I might just give up and decide I don't really care where I end up going, as long as I don't have to deal with the college process anymore.

One big thing I am dreading about becoming a Senior is that it will be my last year in my high school sports. Only one year to prove myself, play my heart out, etc. This is kind of unfortunate since I frequently during sports (especially towards the end of the season) I tend to play worse than the beginning of the season, merely because I grow tired of the sport, or I just get lazy. I definitely don't like this phenomenon that seems to grab me in nearly every sport, and I really don't want it to happen as it did Junior year. I don't want end my high school athletic career with a half-assed season. Sports seasons are generally my favorite part of the year. I love going out after school to get food before a basketball game and hanging out with everybody on the bus. The season always seems to go by quickly, though. One day it'll be the start of the season and we're having "tryouts", then the next it'll be senior night and I'll be playing on my home court/field for the last time. This part I'm dreading the most. I really don't like goodbyes.

Goodbyes are the part that I'm really dreading. Senior year is all about "Last" everything. The Last fitness class, the Last full day, the Last high school test, the Last bell, among a long line of the Lasts I'll have to go through as a Senior. Everyone in my class is going to go on their own separate paths, though some may cross. Saying goodbye to my classmates and teachers is going to be the hardest. I know I'll see them again and all, but I'll still miss them all the same.

These past four years have already gone by so fast; I'm sure my final year will go even more so. I just hope I find time to enjoy it and savor it.

Have a great summer y'all!